The Fon Space

Didn't do much today.. just sit around and do nothing. Kinna suprise by my lazyness. Really scary! How can i sit around and do nothing without feeling guilty? Finally, i picked up my work and start doing.. way too much for me to complete. Dunno where to start.. dunno where to end. Will try to get something out to hand in by tomorrow.. for the rest, i guess i wld hv to get it out quick and pass on to my senior. I think it's time for me to sit and think of what i sld do. Seriously i hv no idea.. May be i sld get away for awhile to sort things out.

 

 

还记得妈咪常带我到尖东玩..我在那里学会走路.

在x'mas 也常带我去party..

当我有不如意的时候就会翻看我的旧相簿...

好怀念小时候哦...

Took around 2 wks of annual leave to study for my CPA exam. Trying to stuff as much knowledge as possible in my little brain. Did another chapter today. Kinna interesting.. itz on IAS 37. Not too bad..had some prior knowledge on the topic so my little brain is not sufferring too much. However, i dun really know wat happen .. just dun feel too happy today. Not that i'm sad or wat.. just feeling abit moody. Maybe i sld hv a glass of hot milk to make myself feel better. But i think i put on some weight recently. (my weight fluctuate alot.. can gain 1 or 2 kg in just a few days!!) Ok..myabe i glass of warm water bah.. at least i dun get fat that way..

Maybe i sld wake up early and do a little jog tomorrow morning..

hai.. so stress.. both mentally and physically..

Lonely planet has always been one of my favourite travallers guide series. Was reading something on how the "Lonely Planet" came about. really admire those who can travel around the world and follow their dreams. Maybe i'm just in the wrong place.. i mean, i don't really hate the place or what.It's just that i believe that i can have a better life style, have a happier life. Of coz, i'm doing something that i like. I love the nature of audit but it's just that i get hiccups so often that i feel so useless and the thought of giving up keep coming to me. I've always been contradictory and complicated. I always wanna do something which i like such as set up alittle cafe business or travel around the world. However, i have just realised how silly these thoughts are. How can i realise my dreams if i can't even do my present obligations right? If i can give up what i'm doing right now so easily, how can i have the perserverance to persue my dream? Maybe i should come up with something more realistic and constructive rather then feeling "trap" here. Maybe i should get focus on getting my CPA first.. 5 more papers to go. At least i can achieve something just like everyone else.

 

One of my good friend told me the other day that we should know if we're happy deep down in our heart and we do not need to tell people why we're happy or not.. That really strike me coz i just realise how silly and insecure i was to her. I am always so open about my feelings to my good friends that maybe in one way or another i have been bothering them. The thought of sharing my happy and unhappy moments with my friends might be just wrong! Coz they might find me a nuisance that they are just not interested in what is happening in my life. I was pretty upsat that after telling her how happy i was that day..that she gave me this comment that as long as i know that i'm happy, i don't have to tell people the reason. I know she meant well.. i know she cares.. but maybe i shall keep my feelings to myself more.